She said, "I'm not mad or anything like that, but don't you think you should say something before you get naked with someone?"

When a girl says something like that, she's TOTALLY pissed......yeah.

I wonder if she would still be talking to me if I were some fat, smelly guy with cheeto stained fingers?
Heh...

I never really talk about RL. It's not important, but tonight, I'm going to be updating my first life status on my profile. There's a disclaimer there now, but you have to scroll all the way down to the bottom to see it. What does it say? "Girl operated boy"
Most of my friends already know this. I'm not trying to be dishonest. What you see is what you get. Everything that I say, my personality...it's all me. I can't pretend there.
So what does it matter who, or what, the puppeteer is? SL is about being who or what you want...we don't have wings, ears and tails, hooves, horns and others of those fantastic fantasy parts in RL.
I just want everyone I meet to know what they are getting into when they friend me. I do apologize to those that didn't catch the disclaimer earlier. I'm sure some will stop talking to me like others already have.
How I came to be? I was created as a "joke", but my puppeteer was very fond of neko bois and gradually shaped me into who I am today. She made me to please her eyes. She didn't know that everyone else would find me pleasing too. It just worked out that way.
I'll also admit that I didn't start off honest and I almost lost someone I cared a lot for. I wouldn't have blamed her for never speaking to me again, but she did keep speaking and we remain friends to this day. (you know who you are)
So that's my story and I'm sticking to it. That's all the RL you'll get out of me. I'll be carrying on as usual....

I haven't had a girlfriend in a while. After Voshie, I really didn't want to get involved with anyone.
I was hanging out with Cait, but she was shared with Sin....and then with a few others. Now I think she's finally found someone. She's partnered with him.
Where does that leave me? Not out in the cold. I've had my eye on a good friend of mine for a while. She's everything I could ask for. Beautiful, smart, fun, funny, creative....yeah, everything....AND, she just became single. We've been hanging out.
Now, I have went forever without any girls showing any interest in me. The minute I start showing interest in someone, someone else starts showing interest in me.
My problem is, I don't discourage it...and I really should.
What can I say. Sometimes I'm a stupid neko.

I came back from a little holiday and was going to go back to work at Sn@tch, but Dahlia said she had good news and bad news. The good news was that I had been on the time clock for a week. The bad news was that Ivey decided she was pulling the model program. No more models.
Ah well, not to worry. I got a job as a live model at +DV8+ I know Dys personally and Vasha through him, so they were nice enough to let me spin. Yay!
I already know some of the models there....through Sn@tch and NMA.
Coolness!

I had some things to take care of and so I quit Sn@tch. It's been a few months. Right before my break, I got a message from Dahlia. She wanted to know if I would like to come back to Sn@tch. Since I'm not really doing anything with NMA, I think I can handle my old job at Sn@tch. She said they missed me. *grin*
She sent Ivey a message tonight. She'll let me know what Ivey says as soon as she hears from her. Awesome!

Haven't been around much, so there hasn't been much to report.
Today I managed to get out and about and found myself in an unlikely place.....it always happens this way.....then I run into this girl I know of, but have never actually met. A girl who is very pleasing to the eyes and takes some spectacular pics!
She said stuff.....I said stuff.....one thing led to another.....MAN. Sometimes you never know how freaky someone is until they open their mouth. Sort of takes the way you see someone and changes your view.....entirely. And sometimes that's not in a good way. O_o

My First Go:
[14:14] Mavi Beck says, "go thoren"
[14:15] JennyH Firanelli, Killer MC: Thoren Dagger is wearing Exile's Requiem; inspired by Crimson's dark atmosphere. Requiem offers many options, giving you many choices to create the perfect outfit. Thoren is wearing the casual shirt version, with Eye Candy's eye popping Onyx Scorpian necklace. Inspired by Crimson Shadow's wild and dangerous nature, the Onyx Scorpian features faceted onyx and burnished silver curving seductively into a deadly yet beautiful tail. Thoren's hair is by Helena Stringer, known for her mohawks. For this special event, Helena has created a hair calling back to a time when men had to fight for the rights to the night, The Shadow Keeper. With flails in his hair, he is sure to defend his rights. Thoren's skin is made by Trap, featuring a scripted 3rd eye, giving you the ability to change the 3rd eye to match your eye color. Last and certainly not least are Thoren's eyes by Treasured Vision, dedicated to the infamous vampire Winter Jefferson in his favorite color -pink.
[14:15] Caitronia Graves whistles as Thorens sexah butt
[14:16] Adaire DeCuir: YAY Thoren!!!
[14:16] Lazarus Charron: Woo!
[14:16] four Yip: applause
[14:16] Ivey Deschanel: -wolf whistlessss-
[14:16] Francesca Balogh: .-'`'-. APPLAUSE APPLAUSE .-'`'-.
[14:16] Hellishly Gothly whistles
[14:16] JDiva Ophelia: WOOOT
[14:16] Rocky1 Waco APPLAUDS!!!
[14:16] Adaire DeCuir: Applause!!
[14:17] Eshi Otawara: i'd get in the shower with this one

( more madness )

...this wont break my heart.....dontcha know!
*stops singing Winger*

You know, there are few people in Second Life that I can truly call "friend"....and it just pisses me off a little when you don't speak to that person (or they don't speak to you or ignore you when you do speak to them) for a while and then when you do want to say hello, they have removed themselves from your life without so much ass a "kiss my ass" or "fuck you buddy"

That "I frequently clean out my friends list, please don't be offended" line is a bunch of bullshit. An easy way out....whatever. Like the subject line says......

I SWEAR!
I get a stalker a day....
This one found me on thursday. She sent me a pretty flirty message (super cheezy come-on line) Then I chatted with her a bit on sunday and she was pretty forward with me. I finally got around to asking her where she came across my profile and she couldn't tell me. Hmmm, you're talking to someone but you don't know where you found their info???? Weird.
We were going to meet up on sunday for a bit, but I had to go. We set up a "date" for monday night but I had some RL stuff that came up. I couldn't log on....the next day (tuesday) she was being all passive/aggressive, pouty and trying to make me feel guilty for standing her up. WTF??? RL is always supposed to come before SL. Right?
I've spoken to her a few times after that and the conversations have gotten weirder and weirder. She's been short with me, vague.....I would say a little childish...and maybe even a little bit of a bitch. I'm not into head games honey and I think that's what you're all about.
We were actually speaking before I started to post this, but I'm ignoring her now...she's one more step from being muted.

...to just fall asleep and never wake up.

Things have been really shitty for me lately....and somehow they just keep getting shittier.
I'm single again.....yeah, wont go into it here. Not worth wasting the keystrokes on.
I'll just say it wasn't bad. We're still friends and that's all we were ever meant to be I guess.
Back to falling asleep.....yeah.
I thought that you knew it all
Well you've seen it ten times before.
I thought that you had it down
With both your feet on the ground.
I love slow ... slow but deep.
Feigned affections wash over me.
Dream on my dear
And renounce temporal obligations.
Dream on my dear
It's a sleep from which you may not awaken.

You build me up then you knock me down.
You play the fool while I play the clown.
We keep time to the beat of an old slave drum.
You raise my hopes then you raise the odds
You tell me that I dream too much
Now I'm serving time in disillusionment.

I don't believe you anymore ... I don't believe you.

I thought that I knew it all
I'd seen all the signs before.
I thought that you were the one
In darkness my heart was won.

You build me up then you knock me down.
You play the fool while I play the clown.
We keep time to the beat of an old slave drum.
You raise my hopes then you raise the odds
You tell me that I dream too much
Now I'm serving time in a domestic graveyard.

I don't believe you anymore ... I don't believe you.

Never let it be said I was untrue
I never found a home inside of you.
Never let it be said I was untrue
I gave you all my time

I had a busy weekend....one that kept me away for most of the weekend. When I finally made it home sunday night I had to rush over to Cait's to finish the photo shoot we started. Sin and I got a few good ones, but Cait got the best ones...I'm sure.
Anyways...had some stuff that kept me away late today. It's hard to be a creature of habit when so much is going on. Usually, I come home. Then I get ready and go work at Sn@tch for an hour. After that hour, I'm available to do whatever....until 8pm SLT. I don't think that's too hard to understand.

The past few days have been a blast. I got a new house. I no longer live in the little retro place. I actually have a home of my own....with some of my furniture....and then Voshie bought me this AMAZING Skybox....

...and Arya was nice enough to furnish it....she put down some spools of thread for seating...and mushrooms big enough to hide under. It's hooked up!
Then, tuesday night, Sinful introduced me to a friend of his, Caitronia Graves. She's a pretty good photographer and she wanted to do pics of me and Sin. We only took a few before I had to go but we were having a good time being silly while the camera shuttered. We only got to do the single shots. I think we're going to pose together this coming sunday. Voshie and Sikke got to watch the silly antics....maybe they will be there for part two.
Last night I worked a bit. While I was working, Aralute came to hang out and then Vasean stopped by. I wish I could say it was to see me...but I think he was checking out the new elfie ears that Ivey made. *sigh* While he was there he did give me a nice tip....(I had to tell Dizzy all about it) *grin*
After work I hung out with V for a while, which was nice....she had to go and I was going to go as soon as I finished taking pictures of the 4 pairs of eyes Aralute gave me.....but Cait IM'd me and said "I GOT CANDYLAND!!!!" so I went to play with her. I also go to meet VincentVile DeSantis....one of the models in the pics around Caits place. He takes some really HOT pics.
I find it funny that I can make friends with girls easily, but guys, not so much. I did manage to friend Vincent....I hope that I get a chance to hang out with him....another funny thing, Voshie was telling me that I needed nipple rings to go with my fishnet shirt. We had shopped for them once and I found a pair I liked, I just didn't buy them. Vincent had some on last night and when I checked them out, he was the creator....he owns FORSAKEN....the place where I was going to buy my nipple rings in the first place. LOL....small world.
Ok...I'm off to bed. I'm a tired kitteh! (speaking of kitteh...Ivey has made some cool kitteh parts. My favorite are the feets!!)

Hmmm, well, I haven't been up to much. Just dressing up and prancing around.
I joined Voshie for an interview a few weeks ago....you can read all about it HERE
I think you might find it interesting.....

Tonight has been a busy night for me. Voshie called me over to see the flat she rented for us. I really like it. She was also in the middle of an interview when I arrived.
She was being interviewed for the Crimson Shadow Rezzable Sim. She was asked about the club and about being a vampire....and then somehow I got involved in the interview because they wanted to know what it's like to be a blood doll. I'm a personal blood doll to Voshie. *GRIN*
Not sure when the interview will be posted, we have to take pics for it....but I'll post more when it's up.

I'm not sure if anyone knew, but Voshie and I had a bit of a falling out in May and we broke up, but tonight we decided to work things out...after talking and hanging out a bit. I missed her and I'm glad we get a second chance. When you're in a relationship, there will be problems. You just gotta talk through it and work things out.
(look at us...I'm not even sure she noticed, but we're both wearing shirts with skulls on them...not planned....great minds just think alike!)

Ya know...last monday, the 2nd, was my rez day and I totally forgot.....and so did everyone else.
I'm a year old now! w00t! Do I get a cardboard cookie?

Well, I had plans tonight.....HAD....but I ended up sitting at Toby's Juke Joint Blues Club...at the bar....by myself....listening to these words drift through my ears...

Gone my lovers dream
Lovely summer dream
Gone and left me here to weep my tears into the stream
Sad as I can be
Hear me willow and weep for me

Whisper to the wind and say that love has sinned
Left my heart a-breaking, and making a moan
Murmur to the night to hide its starry light
So none will see me sighing and crying all alone....

Not that I sat there and cried...but the music was sort of down...so I just went with it.

It's 3:00 A.M.
I'm awake and my heart is still dreaming
It's 3:00 A.M.
Outside I hear the souls still screaming
It's been so long you know since my head's been this clear
Just like a ship lost in the night
I just don't know which way I should steer
But I'll keep chasing my dreams
And only you can make them real
I pour my heart out every night
But do you know the way that I feel
Sometimes this is work
And don't you know sometimes this is play
Sometimes you are listening to me
And sometimes you don't hear a damn word that I say
Sometimes there's a girl
Sometimes I go home alone
And I guess it's no wonder right now
That I do very well on my own
But I'll keep chasing my dreams
And only you can make them real
I pour my heart out every night
But do you know the way that I feel
And I will play just as long as you will listen
Now I'm in no big hurry to get back on the road
Sometimes in this lifestyle
I feel like there's so much that I'm missing
Well I'm missing you
It's just that I'm ... so far from home
It's 3:00 A.M.
I'm awake and my heart is still dreaming
It's 3:00 A.M.
Outside I hear the souls still screaming

Tonight....I was flipping through others pics.....and I saw their joy...their togetherness....their peace.....and then I started flipping through mine...and I became very depressed. I had all of that. I think I realized tonight....how empty I really am without her.
I mean...how does one function properly when their other half is missing?
I didn't even tell her I love her.....

I don't know what my problem is, but my agitation level is VERY HIGH tonight as I dance around to some great jrock tunes.
Ever felt like a pawn in a game?
Yeah...well, this pawn isn't playing....sorry...go bark up someone else's tree....dawg.